(He held no moral attachment or consideration to any actions— they benefited his happiness or they didn't, they made him upset or they didn't. Even though Celty's happiness meant the world to him, it came second to his own happiness, and he would never let hers get in the way of his own.
He was, and is, a terrible person to attach to. Except that neutrality of sight helps him understand the person he's slowly descending away from, and that it doesn't matter what "good" traits he lacks in possession, or how he chooses to express his "love" for humans. He never means to hurt anyone with it, and mostly doesn't want to hurt his own self. He didn't need to be a "good" person to be cared for.
He slows his steps once again at that, waving a hand over his shoulder.
It's been like two goddamn years since he's seen this rotten, terribly fragile person.)
Well, what do you think, Orihara-kun? I'm either being insincere with you though I have no reason to be, or you don't understand everything about me. Most importantly, I'm a ghost drifting through this world, so you have to be very alive, because that's how we are.
(As long as he's here. When they're back home, Izaya can do whatever he wants, he always will. Of course he wants him to show up at his door one day with that annoying smile on his face, and he wants Celty to get flustered in trying to be polite to him for Shinra's sake, and he'd like for them all to eat dinner together! But it's nonsense to think it will happen the more time passes, and he'll accept whatever decision his friend makes. The only decision he can't respect is the one they won't really talk about, because Izaya doesn't want to talk much about it!)
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He was, and is, a terrible person to attach to. Except that neutrality of sight helps him understand the person he's slowly descending away from, and that it doesn't matter what "good" traits he lacks in possession, or how he chooses to express his "love" for humans. He never means to hurt anyone with it, and mostly doesn't want to hurt his own self. He didn't need to be a "good" person to be cared for.
He slows his steps once again at that, waving a hand over his shoulder.
It's been like two goddamn years since he's seen this rotten, terribly fragile person.)
Well, what do you think, Orihara-kun? I'm either being insincere with you though I have no reason to be, or you don't understand everything about me. Most importantly, I'm a ghost drifting through this world, so you have to be very alive, because that's how we are.
(As long as he's here. When they're back home, Izaya can do whatever he wants, he always will. Of course he wants him to show up at his door one day with that annoying smile on his face, and he wants Celty to get flustered in trying to be polite to him for Shinra's sake, and he'd like for them all to eat dinner together! But it's nonsense to think it will happen the more time passes, and he'll accept whatever decision his friend makes. The only decision he can't respect is the one they won't really talk about, because Izaya doesn't want to talk much about it!)